there are many things i would like to say. many things to tell you. i miss you, i still do. i don’t know why. you are like part of my puzzle but got lost. i get sad whenever i think of you. i wrote a letter. wanted to give you but didnt have the courage to. sigh. guess i’ll just type it out here. whatever i wanna say.

since we broke up. we had 2 meet ups. but whenver i met you. i felt happy.. and sad. happy because i get to see you again, sad cause i only get to see you. the feeling was like “i’m in the back of the bus looking through the rear window watching you walking further and further away from my sight” , feeling was bad. to be honest, the break up was hard for me. guess it was hard for you too. leaving secondary life, i knew things won’t get easy for us. different school, different life and different people around us. i knew, i knew things like this would happen but never did i think that this will happen to us. guess i was wrong. you said you want us to be closer than before, problem is… HOW ? you’ve got a partner now, sure there is bound to be distance between us. We can’t be the best of friends. i’m sorry. i’m trying my best not to think of you, but i just can’t. the things around me reminds me of you. the holidays and things all remind me of you. i dream of you every now and then, i just dont know why. i wish i had an answer. but i guess the answer is the love i have for you is just too deep.

the fact that you’ve got a boyfriend 3 days after our breakup hurts me even more. it makes me think that even before our breakup, you alr like this guy but still, you wanted to salvage our relationship. thanks for doing that. but i’m hurt even more. i know you said you want to have regular meet ups. i’m sorry. i can’t do it. i just don’t wanna keep thinking of you. sorry. im weak. i’m sorry i just jad to say all this. it’s bottling up my heart.

I don’t hate you, and i won’t. Life’s too short to hate.

I hope you’re happy with the life you have now.

I’m not forgetting the past, but i’m choosing not to remember it.

Scarlet

Hey, it’s been awhile since i last blog. laziness got the best of me.

Well, i don’t know what to blog about. haha.

Topic’s just random. i like that word.

Misunderstanding is what led us to be together. Understanding was what led us to separation.

Blah.. No topic..

Hi,

It’s been days since i last blog, these few days was good i shall say. have been hanging out with friends, cousins for jammings and lan gaming sessions. hah. exams are around the corner, and yet i haven’t start studying. guess next week’s study week for all of us. hopefully i can do well this time around. life’s been rather normal after we broke up. still not fully use to the singles life. hah. just that whenever i see couples, they remind me of jane and myself when we were still together. happy times are worth keeping. (:

was working with Eillson the other day at mount faber, was kinda fun actually, just that i did many mistakes and kinda slow in keeping the dishes, still new but will try to keep up. nice people there. but hopefully i can find a job that requires me to work in a shop. lol. how choosy am i?

It’s late now and time to sleep. Nights readers. (:

A Lonely September and Cai Hong. Nice songs, really. Listen to it.

I tried hard not to think of you.

But whenever i do something,

there’s always a cue for me to start thinking of you again.